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N-drewDrew's WonderSpace =P 2005/10/24 62 more days to Operationally Ready Date (ORD)241005 2232 hrs
hee cant remember when was the last time updated my blog.... been a while i guess.hm..... this is my last week that i will be staying in camp.i will be clearing my offs n leaves after this week.im overjoyed for this time to come as it has been every NSFs dream to ORD.so this is how it feels to clear offs n leaves.i been waiting for these days to come... having to watch my service balance from 730 days counting down to 62 days... its tough. though i been waiting for these days to come, at the same time guilts and sadness filled my heart. i felt guilty cos i took those ns days i served for granted, i felt that i never learnt enough, i just cant gain enough from these 2 yrs i served. its a total waste... on the other way, im sad that i have to leave my wonderfull superiors n my fellow soldier mates whom i had great times together with, been going thru thick n thin together.buddies who always encouraged me to never give up, whom we always spent time working things out, and jokes we shared together.
now my time has finally arrived, obviously there are some ****ed up soldiers i met during my 2 yrs service, soldiers who always tried to brain wash me with negative thoughts. there are soldiers who always cricticised me for me being a malaysian and served the singapore national service. but now i guess im fortunate to be able to serve the national service here cos, i learnt things that malaysians never learn, such as fighting spirit, leadership, professionalism and finally DISCIPLINE which i feel that its the most important core value among all.having to come to the end of my service, i feel that the ARMY has greatly transformed me to have better mentality, looking back to the times before my ns, i was a naive kid without discipline, sense of punctuality and lazy. with the correct mind set, i done lots of things which i thought was impossible.for example would be, i never thought that im able to complete the 24 km route march with full battle order, survived the 7 days field camp, being able to complete the 21km Army Half Marathon. all these are made possible, thanx to the discipline and the fighting spirit they taught me. never regret being in the SAF........... 2005/09/21 sweetie from sabah210905 1909hrs
hm... not been writing much recently.recently i received an email from a girl from sabah.she said she got my email add from msn web directory.in the email she asked me to add her in msn.i was thinking, should i add her or should i not.i was curious that she might turn out to be in godzilla size.but i decided to gamble with my luck.so i added, but she appeared offline.then the next day, which was yesterday morning, i onlined my msn n i saw her online, so we chatted, we chatted really alot.we even exchanged pics.to my surprise, she is 'girl next door' type.she looks sweet, cute, cheerful n small in size.haha, i was lucky to know her.but too bad she is staying at putrajaya.how i wish she is staying at johor bahru.so that i can find her everytime when im free.but anyway, i never ask for her number as im the shy type of guy.so i see no point in taking her num,cos even if i have it,we wont b chatting much in the phone.i guess she might turn me down even if i ask for her number.anyway today we chatted online again.i guess im on the right track in knowing a stranger more n more thus we can be more friendly from stranger.
210905 1923hrs 2005/09/17 how could this be happening?170905 0138 hrs hm.... its sat early morning..... sat jus an hour plus old.... yes its sat midnight.... but wat am i stil doing in camp?yes im at camp now on sat..... i been abused again.... guess wat... im doing guard duty again on fri to sat morning.the whole battalion is having their off cos they are going to brunei on 190905 (which is on monday) and im here guarding the camp.my guard duty schedule is out for this month and i dun think its fair to me cos i will be be doing guard duty on 16 sep(fri), 21 sep(wed), 30th sep(fri) and 9th oct(sun), 2X fri and 1X sun.again i have to force myself to accept it. anyway i force myself to think that its fair to me cos i will getting my off day on 190905 which is monday.why i have to force myself to think that its fair? dats becos the actual reason for monday off is not becos of my fri(which is yesterday 160905) guard duty but its becos of the Army Half Marathon.anyway i dun wanna care more.... the more i think of it the more i think that its unfair.well i been not giving them troubles or complaining about the unfairness they gave me, i jus hope that when the time i ask for off days nex month, they will not b hesitate to give me off days until my ORD (Operational Ready Date aka end of service) which is this x'mas, so dat i have double joy and celebration during x'mas. speaking of ORD, im again getting impatience to my ORD.i cant sleep whenever i think of it =P i jus hope that once i Ord, everthing will go on smoothly.argh,...... my next duty is at 0400 hrs and im stil awake, i guess i should go have some nap before my next duty or else i will b sleepy when i prowl the camp later... oh damn its raining..... wat a nice weather to sleep,how can i resist it =P tata.... 170905 0157 hrs 2005/09/13 sheares bridge and army half marathon 21.1km is finally over110905 1625hrs finally AHM is over, and i cant believe that i managed to ran 21.1km within 165 mins.this is the 1st time i ran 21.1km and i managed to complete it within the specified timing.feeling so so so happy.... well, 21.1km is tough.was running until 11km, and i stopped to walk a while... the final 10 km was tough, because thats where all the pain, heart beats faster than usual, aching, have to watch out on the amount of H2O i consumed, and have to keep an eye on whether am i on the right timing on the distance i had covered.as i covered 16km, i felt like giving up, cos of my knees pain, the worse is i had abrasion on my left thigh... it was so demoralising, but wat came into my mind was the doubt my fren (KK) gave me 'u sure u can run 21km?' , ' the longest distance u covered during training was 12km, but u r running 21km this time, wats the use of completing it?'. the more i thought of wat he told me, the more confident i have in completing it.then i recalled dat another fren (jojo) said that she have confident in me that i will complete it.soon i began to felt the urge in completing it.... and i did it.... and my superior was proud of me.... and my reward is the 21.1km sheares bridge and Army Half Marathon medal... so always bear in mind, Don't just DREAM of respect, Earn the RESPECT you DESERVED. 8hrs before army half marathon100905 (sat) 2224hrs im in camp now, supposed to sleep at 2000 hrs and wake up at 0300 hrs but somehow i cant sleep.wondering why.... perhaps its becos im too excited over tomoro's Army Half Marathon (AHM 21km run).its far, my morale is high, im looking forward for it, at the same time im worried about it because my left knee ligament was torn before thanx to a bus3rd*.im mentally prepared for the run, im physically ready, been running 4km, 6 km, 8 km and 12km.all these runnings and trainings are for wat?its becos of sep 11 05' AHM.but somehow im afraid my knee cant take it... its very sad that i cant run faster than usual, i cant play soccer, i cant have career in ADF (Army Development Force), i cant jump far...... all becos of my torn limanent.its been a yr since i operated my knee on aug 29 04' but somehow the condition of my knee is stil the same.very sad........... wish me luck for tomoro's AHM.... hope i wil complete the 21km within 165 mins and return back to camp in a full piece.... cheers 100905 (sat) 2237 hrs |
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